It has been a week of revelation, confirmation, and assurance.
Recall that I was lamenting about my feelings of weakness. Here are the various ways God answered.
“14 For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, 15 from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name, 16 that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with power through His Spirit in the inner man, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; and that you, being rooted and grounded in love, 18 may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, 19 and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled up to all the fullness of God.
20 Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us, 21 to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen.”
– Ephesians 3:14-21
Firstly, “strengthened with power through His Spirit in the inner man, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts”. Such a simple truth, and I had forgotten it in my self-pity. It is never ourselves who are strong, it is Christ in us. And we have all been redeemed and given this Spirit, a Spirit of power, love, and self-control. It is precisely in our weakness that we are strong. And here I am reminded of the lyrics: The same power that conquered the grave lives in me, lives in me. Your love that rescued the world lives in me, lives in me. Indeed. How could I let such defeatist sentiments seep in? It was exactly the thing we renounced last year after TackleCamp. Verse 20 refers to God as “Him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think”. And was this not the revelation that was impressed upon our hearts? That He is a God of so-much-more? How easily we forget.
Yet why? Why did I forget? And I remembered yet another lesson. To avoid walking in darkness… walk in love! Do, act, live out the life of love, and you will be living as children of light. The problem was that after I finished Project Serve, I basically did nothing with my life. Faith that is not exercised grows weak.
God spoke to me also when I was taking a walk with my dog. I unleashed him since it was late and there was no one around. As we walked I realised that he kept looking up at me, and rarely ran ahead (except when he smells something). He looked so content, so fearless, as if following his master meant everything is good and well. And when he does stray, a whistle was all it took to have him sprinting back to my side, as if he were afraid that I will go off without him. And I remember thinking to myself – ought not our walk with God be the same way? Do we have that same sort of single-mindedness? The same dependency and the rest and joy that arises from it? It is simple, really. Keep our eyes on our Master, walk on fearlessly.
Lastly, He spoke to me during my ascetic reclusion at Botanic Gardens. As I wondered at the splendour and glory in creation, I thought about how ridiculous it is that I am to be considered of more worth than all of creation. How can it be that I am the jewel of His creation? How, when I am so broken and tainted? It is then that He reminded me of this verse that is extremely close to my heart:
“He has made everything beautiful in His time.”
– Ecclesiastes 3:11a
All this time I had seen it as referring to situations in my life: relationships, problems, etc. But never did I think that it could refer to me also. He has made me beautiful in His own time. That was a mind-blowing revelation. For are we not made in His image? In Him, we have glory, splendour and beauty that surpasses that of the most delicate flower, the most grand tree. Yet all of this in time. Surely He is moulding us, refining us into the person He wants us to be. And here I was reminded of yet another passage. One which I took note of a couple of weeks ago and casually decided to write down on a couple of post-its on my desk for no real reason. But God works in mysterious ways.
“23Nevertheless I am continually with You;
You have taken hold of my right hand.
24 With Your counsel You will guide me,
And afterward receive me to glory.
25 Whom have I in heaven but You?
And besides You, I desire nothing on earth.
26 My flesh and my heart may fail,
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”
– Psalm 73:23-26
He is the one who is ever with us, guiding us into his glory. And even in the weakness of our flesh and our heart, we are strong in Him. What assurance! What hope!
Yet this isn’t just for me. Rather, I feel that this is a message that many of our leaders need to realise – something which Yun Ying affirmed. We really need to broaden our horizons, and not be satisfied with the status quo. We need to go forth in boldness and confidence, because we have the backing of the Most High God, who can do more than we can ever imagine or ask. He is the God of wonders, the God of miracles, the God of the supernatural, the God of the impossible.